Night

Night

Standing in her fears
Dare she relish in her dreams
Conquering the world

#Haiku #Poetry #Ratri #Goddess #MondayNightHaiku

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Letting Go: The end is knowing

Letting Go: The end is knowing

#Haiku “Letting Go”
No questions let go
Your worth will shine and capture
By then you will know

Slowly I have been letting things go and taking a step back from thoughts that have kept my mind from being free. I have declared 2017 as the year I will say yes to more experiences, let go of things that I have held onto for too long, let go of pain while being honest about my wounds, and letting go of anything toxic. I owe all of this to myself. If I was to give this year a theme it would be “The Year of Healing.”

Through this process, I am actively taking steps to recognize when I need to take a step back. I am reflective in this way. I enjoy being able to reflect and process my experiences, different situations, emotions, etc… and love it when I have the ability to talk about it among my friends. Reflection is such a powerful tool. At times I tend to overthink and I know how to pull myself back in.

Communication is so important to me and sometimes I struggle with it. One thing I mentioned awhile back is that I will say what I need to even if I hesitate and cry to get whatever it is out. Those may not be the exact words, but I hope you catch my drift.

I want to make this year the year that I invest more in myself and what I like to do. Part of that for me is letting go and knowing how to be kinder to myself. Be kind to yourself because society steps on your back enough. We all have our reasons why we are hard on yourself. I have good reasons and I know it is okay to give myself a break.

Throughout our life we will not always get the answers we seek when we seek them, sometimes they come to us at a later time down our path. You may feel that you need to let something go, but not know why. Listen to your intuition. Have the hard conversation, let the grudge go, let the skeletons out of the closet, change, grow, invest in yourself, heal, experience…

Most importantly, DO YOU!

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Does your effort match your dreams?

Does your effort match your dreams?

Does your effort match your dreams? Take a moment to sit with this question…

I was asked this question over the weekend, more like yesterday. The reality is that my effort does not currently match my dreams. I do not want to say I am comfortable because I have not been out of graduate school for a year yet.
I may have spoke about this in my first post, but majority of my life I have been in survival mode. I am not saying this is an excuse I am saying I now have the time to figure out who I am. Over the past couple years I have engaged in a lot of self-reflection stemming from my experiences growing up and how I show up in the world. The difference now is that I am looking at things that I have always loved to do and researching how I can make those things a reality for myself. 

Totally related and or unrelated depending on your perspective but I was in RESPOND Mental health training last week and a couple people came up to me inquiring about the same thing. They both asked if I had a counseling background. One of them was a counselor and mentioned (in so many words) that I have this way about me that says “counselor.”

Once upon a time, I wanted to be a counselor. Throughout the majority of my undergrad I was planning to get my masters in counseling and go from there. I have heard similar comments before so I at least know it was sincere. I no longer have plans to be a counselor and I asked myself, “does skill=purpose?” 

Naturally we have some skill, something we are good at that we can develop, and in other areas we need to work twice as hard to develop a skill. I am assuming Steph Curry had some game when he started ballin’ and then continued to develop that. He or someone else recognized his abilities and chose to beleive in him and he chose to beleive in himself. Thus, did he see that skill as his purpose? I guess I should ask if he sees basketball as his purpose in the first place. Likewise, I have a skill and or skills that a say “counselor” and I do not necessarily know if that is my purpose.

Back to my point about survival mode. I have been in survival mode majority of my life which did not allow me the opportunity to sit with myself, be with myself, and figure out what I would like to do with my life. Yes I had a goal and I had a passion for where I am at right now and something else is trying to send a message. 

I hope to use the next few months to dig deep and listen to what I am trying to tell myself. Listen to yourself and ask if your dreams match your effort. Don’t have “champagne dreams with beer effort.” 

More importantly do not let your need to stay afloat prevent you from getting to know who you are. 

Upper Echelon

Upper Echelon

#MondayNightHaiku #EverydayBlackness

Highest Queens and Kings
Deserving of the throne, sit
They know your power

This haiku goes out to every person living in a world where society tries to tear them down. To my brothas and sistahs who continue to show up and show out. We endure so much. I once told a friend of mine that I would never want to be White, I would never want to be them because I know who I am. I/we are wiser and that is why the oppressors take. That is why all they have done is take and try to strip those they attempt to dominate of their identity. They are lost and they do not know who they are.

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Adventure awaits

Wanderer keep faith
Be still between here and there
Life is waiting, go

#MondayNightHaiku

P.S. I am missing Barcelona so it is only right that I post a picture. I cannot take the credit because I got it off of google. One day I will be back and eating choripan while sippin’ sangria at the beach.

barca

Embrace where you are: The beauty of trees

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Be open and honest about where you are at. I was given the metaphor of a tree and how it relates to our being. Have you thought about the teachings of a tree? I am sure if we stop to think about all that mother nature provides we would learn many lessons.

The nourishment of the tree’s roots affects what you see above ground. We are the same. We can project to others how we want them to see us, but eventually the lack of nourishment shows. Most of the time it shows in small ways we cannot always recognize. The lack of attending to our needs hurts us. You can be selfish and selfless. Often selfishness is looked at negatively without the consideration of what neglecting our needs does to our being.

I am guilty of doing this and I continue to think more consciously about how I am treating myself. The point is this. Take care of your roots. I hope this can be a reminder. Do something that will let you know daily that you matter and are important.

Part of nourishing your being is letting go of the roots that are dead. Letting go of anything that poisons your roots. Giving yourself the ability to grow and let in what you otherwise might have shut out. Broadening who you are and your being

It is okay to be open and honest with yourself about where you are at. It is okay to work on yourself and give your roots the water they need. It is okay to communicate that and live it!