You think you know me?
Stereotypes tied with your unmalleable mind is no match for a queen
Carrying the spirit of my ancestors
Walking rebelliously in solidarity with my kin
Decaying box with my name on it starving from my resistance
I have not fed it the assimilation it needs to survive
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“I choose to be happy”
One of the many affirmation cards that sit on my desk. If I have learned anything in the past year it is this, it is okay to be patient until you get what you want. In other words, wait for the right fuel (I wonder how many times I have said this to myself and in my post already, I need a constant reminder). Coincidentally, as I lift the next card up it states, “It is ok for me to have everything I WANT.”
Yesterday I was told “No”
A normal response this time last year would be some feelings of discouragement. However, this time around I was happy, weirdly happy. Maybe it is not weird at all. I know that if I was told yes I would have continued a process where I was settling. A door was closed and I know that something better for me is waiting behind another door; as cliche as it sounds.
Moving to Missouri has been particularly challenging. Not the moving part, but what I have experienced while here. Despite the mental exhaustion and dragging myself out of bed each day, I do not think I made the wrong choice by any means. After a few hard conversations, I know a new chapter awaits.
My life is currently similar to the cursor I see on my screen. It is waiting for me to write my next chapter and the difference this time is that there is no script. The only guidelines are what I need to be happy, thriving, and my definition of successful.
Therefore, I leave you with this…
“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us” supposedly said by someone named Joseph Campbell
How many of yall have haters?
We usually have one and that is ourselves. Too often we doubt our abilities and who we are in some way. Do not sell yourself short. The mind is powerful and has the strength to force us into a place of comfortability.
If you find that you are in a place where you are stuck or you have worked on something for awhile, note that your day will come. As cliche (#InsertAccentMark) as that may sound.
I am saying this while digesting it at the same time. Your journey is different than the person next to you, behind you, and in front of you.
STOP COMPARING and live YOUR life because at the end of the day you are the one that has to live it. Ignore the voices, ignore your haters, and ignore that voice in your head telling you in multiple different ways that you can’t.