SAHEcation: Orlando, Florida Edition

The other day I was enjoying the nice humid 91degree weather with a 40% chance of rain in Orlando, Florida. Palm trees, lake, and a strange bird was in my view that I have yet to identify. Nothing says vacay like 14 dollars and 57 cents left in your bank account. Why was May such a rough month financially? I guess I can say goodbye to my budget that went to sh*t. So I may or may not have been lucky to be there, but I am thankful. Because my recent need to get away for my mental health I have found my vacation fund depleted. For another round of, “where did my money go?” I will blame it on the fact that I live in the middle of nowhere and it was challenging to find rides to my various destinations this week and next week that I have found myself “ripped off.”

Where was I going with this?

Oh yeah.

Is there another version of “I got hoes in different area codes” that I could apply to my friends? Wait, they are not my hoes we just come from many places across the United Sates hence my desire to use area codes. Shoutout to Ludacris because that is essentially my life.

I enjoy traveling which is why it is a line item under “Savings” in my budget. I had the opportunity to see a friend who I have not had the chance to sit next to in over a year. His car got towed in the process, haha, talk about Hello! he is not mad so I feel like I can freely tell you all about this experience and laugh about it.

Grad school has provided me with more than an education. It has provided me with a great group of friends doing amazing work. I almost cried when I arrived when everyone got up to hug me and offered me a smile while shouting my name. I had a rough week and I want them to know I appreciated that moment more than I can express with words.

I know traveling provides you with a certain social capital that not everyone has the privilege of obtaining. At any rate, Florida is in the books, Colorado is next, and then Washington. Two new states in two weeks =)

“Travel and change of place impart new vigor to the mind” Seneca

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Yesterday I was told “No”

“I choose to be happy”
One of the many affirmation cards that sit on my desk. If I have learned anything in the past year it is this, it is okay to be patient until you get what you want. In other words, wait for the right fuel (I wonder how many times I have said this to myself and in my post already, I need a constant reminder). Coincidentally, as I lift the next card up it states, “It is ok for me to have everything I WANT.”

Yesterday I was told “No”
A normal response this time last year would be some feelings of discouragement. However, this time around I was happy, weirdly happy. Maybe it is not weird at all. I know that if I was told yes I would have continued a process where I was settling. A door was closed and I know that something better for me is waiting behind another door; as cliche as it sounds.

Moving to Missouri has been particularly challenging. Not the moving part, but what I have experienced while here. Despite the mental exhaustion and dragging myself out of bed each day, I do not think I made the wrong choice by any means. After a few hard conversations, I know a new chapter awaits.

My life is currently similar to the cursor I see on my screen. It is waiting for me to write my next chapter and the difference this time is that there is no script. The only guidelines are what I need to be happy, thriving, and my definition of successful.

Therefore, I leave you with this…

“We must be willing to get rid of the life we’ve planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us” supposedly said by someone named Joseph Campbell

Flight #1564

Flight #1564

This post is about a week late but hey, here it goes anyway…

Outside of the fact that I get anxiety at the thought of something going wrong while I go through TSA, I like airports. Well maybe not necessarily airports but hopefully you can catch my drift as you continue reading. I am an introvert and tend not to branch out but usually people talk to me. Either, I want people to avoid me or I will engage a little bit.

I met a couple today who are retired and getting their travel on! I was happy to get a window seat, yay me! As they asked me where I was from the husband and I were able to make a connection. He recently retired from the place I work at now. He still teaches online. Do you ever think about sitting on the back porch having a conversation with an older couple that you have known all of 2 seconds? Just me? Okay. 

We have so much to gain from those we pass in the airport down to those who pick up the toilet paper you decided to leave on the ground while in the restroom stall. 

Now on my second fight I am in the middle of two people currently and for the first time chose to sit in the middle, what???? The person to my left is drinking a Bloody Mary while reading a book. The person to my right is slowly drinking an alcoholic drink that someone bought them. I am guessing it is one of their buddies. I just got done drinking some Chardonnay, my first alcoholic drink on a flight I might add, and I have flown at least over 20 times by now. Wow, that I can be thankful for.

All this reflection and taking the energies of the people around me reminds me of my experience when I was on my way to South Korea. 

I was on my way to my gate when a couple sparked up a conversation with me. I told them that I am headed to study abroad and it is the first time I am leaving the country. The wife proceeded to ask me how old I was. After, she started to cry. If you know how emotional I am I almost cried too. She mentioned that she had a child the same age as me. Her husband did his best to calm her down and assure her that I was going to make it to South Korea safely. It touched my heart and still does to this day. I wish I grabbed onto the opportunity to stay in contact with them. 

Whatever your journey in life you come across some great people. In a world so cruel that is one thing I know I can appreciate at the end of the day. We always have something to learn whether good, bad, sad, joyful etcetera from the people we pass. The people we sit next to, the people we become friends with, the people who annoy us, the people we slowly eye from across the way because they look scrumptious… forgive me for I have sinned? *rubs chin…According to this pastor I recently heard preach I have sinned.

Anyway, I sit here with so many thoughts running through my head and I cannot wait to land

#CaliforniaBound