Heyyyyyy! I hope I was not too missed, but I hope I was missed a little. If I did not say so I would be lying and I would like to think what we have going on is deeper than that. Life is a blur since the last time I posted and not in the sense that I had a lot going on. Summer was boring and tough because I did not get an opportunity to escape from Maryville except for a job interview that I had back in early July. I did not get the job and I am sad I used my vacation hours on them. I have been away because I am working on another project, and then I said to myself, “uh you can do both.” I could potentially be back because my friend told me she misses my blogs as well.
I am now 26 years old and life could be better. I hope the universe understands that I have learned enough lessons and would like to start the next chapter of my life now, haha. 2017 is almost over and at the end of the day, I am happy that Sonic and I are going on 3 years. If you do not know who Sonic is you are missing out. Sonic is a little Toyota, Scion XD.
I do not expect life to be perfect but after all of the BS you kind of hope you could live in lala land with glitters and rainbows for a little while and maybe Charlie the unicorn just to bring you back to earth. I may have cried today and that is okay. I recently wrote something and put it up on Instagram that said: “pain taught her most of what she knows.” When I wrote that it hit me hard in a good way because it is true. I recognize pain as a friend and not something that is bad. Pain is telling you something and you should listen. Adopting this ideology about pain has deepened my reflection. Considering where I have been and the hell I currently am in it makes sense for my life. You do what you want, I am here to provide perspective.
I am wary of people who present themselves as good at every waking moment. I am not saying it is not good to be positive because it is. I strive to be as positive as I can be and recognize that when life is crap I sit in it. If I do not sit in it then it sits there and does not go away. I assume if I sat in literal crap some of it would be stuck to my butt so you catch my drift. Optimistic-realist is what I self-proclaim to be.
A recent mantra and affirmation I recite is “Where I am at now is not the end” because I refuse and believe more good/growth is to come.
P.S. I love Rihanna’s new makeup and was mainly excited about it because it dropped on my birthday =)
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